Tuesday August 29, 2000

Dreamt that I was climbing Mt. Everest. Got to a point where there was a small busy town. I hired a guide to take me up, a boy about my age. He gives me some equipment, because I have nothing with me except my blue northface jacket. The boy and I are very comfortable with each other, physically. We kiss and touch simply, without even realizing what it means. He's been living there for a while. Beautiful clothes, a round beautiful face. There is a social life up there. We meet other guides, his friends. He's to be married to a girl, but without speaking we're in love. He doesn't tell me about the girl, but I know because she comes around, I put pieces together. He doesn't want to hurt her but we both know he can't be with her. There is snow and sunshine and peaks everywhere. We smoke and he's lying in my lap - his head. We are so close. I woke up so peaceful.